"It's a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anythingbut the best, you very often get it"
- William Somerset Maugham
I can't tell you how many times I have been told never to settle, to never accept anything less than the best. It's one of my major character flaws. I am kind and accepting, but to a fault. I think it's one of those things where you think, well eventually I won'be like this. Eventually I'll grow out of it and right now I can just "be me".
But who is "me?" There is a quote that floats around that goes something like this: "God loves you just the way you are, but he loves you too much to leave you that way."
Being you could any number of things and any number of stages of you. There isnt' just one "you". Being yourself is a complete choice, but not just any choice, it's a layered and difficult choice. You can be the "you" you are comfortable with that never has to do anything more. Or you can be the "you" that you have always wanted to be and strive for refinement and dignity. Then there are all those layers inbetween...it all comes down to you. There is no scapegoat of "I was born this way" like Lady Gaga says. Sure, you can be born into just awful circumstances and rise above, or even born into the best environment possible and sink far below.
I think that the key if figuring out who you really are anyway. You are a child of God. A God! Think about it, God is all-powerful, all-knowing and perfect. Flawless! He is all loving, all caring and all sorts of involved in very detail of everything! That is potential we all have. No one is exempt.
If there is ever a time to step back and think, do I deserve this? Am I good enough? The answer will always be a thousand times YES. But, that begs the other question, are you will to sacrifice, swallow your pride and follow what He wants? Even when it doesn't make sense and even when you REALLY don't want to? Remember, you are you...you can do whatever you want. Make the choice and stick with it.
"It's a funny thing about life, if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it."